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not good. [08 Jul 2008|04:17pm] lesbian [mudawana] does it make sense that i'm falling for someone that i am absolutely petrified of? if any of you read my other post, it's the girl who is my ex-girlfriend's ex. we've spent a lot of time together ever since we hung out last week..... and we talk non-stop all day, every day until we're falling asleep on the phone. surprisingly, she's really sincere and treats me better than anyone has in a while, she knows what to say at the right moment. not to mention the sex is..... earth shattering. i feel like i'm actually on the L word when we're having sex. it's so passionate and meaningful and everything i've ever dream fantasized about. but, i'm scared of her..... absolutely petrified. she's fucked over so many people she's dated and so have i, i'm not going to lie... and act like i haven't. we have the same group of friends, and they both don't want us dating each other because some think i'm going to hurt her, and others think she's going to hurt me. but there is a good amount who want us to give each other a try, and they think we can work. every time she texts me my heart races and it's so happy and full of excitement, but deep down you know when you're expecting a bad text from someone and it's in the pit of your stomach and you're full of fear? it's those two feelings at once. i have no idea what to do, i want to make the best decision for me.... because some how, i keep making the wrong ones. 1 comment|post comment

[08 Jul 2008|03:15pm] lesbian [fairydreams_] [ mood | nervous ] So, have any of you ever met through the internet? I've been talking to this girl for a week who lives about 5 minutes from where I live at school and we're going to try to hang out tonight at the mall or something. She seems nice enough and someone I could possibly get into but I'm a little apprehensive about meeting someone off the internet. Sure, I'm a young adult woman and I've already been living on my own most of this year but should I really be worried? Aside from that, I don't think I'm very good with women. My guy friends told me I need to be more assertive if I want to pursue something but not too much or it'll make me look desperate. I'm not sure how to exactly do that? I feel like such a prude lol I've only dated one other girl and she did most of the pursuing towards me. Any advices, suggestions, tips, etc? 6 comments|post comment

This was scary. [08 Jul 2008|02:00pm] lesbian [realthing1] I just read on 365gay.com and http://www.grrlplanet.com that same-sex couples in Wisconsin who decide to marry in California might face all sorts of criminal charges when they get home. wow. It makes me feel really lucky to live in the New England area. There are so many places in this country that you can't hold hands, be affectionate or anything...and it was a real wake up call to me. 1 comment|post comment

OH MY GOD EYECANDY EVERYWHERE. [09 Jul 2008|12:49am] birls [tripleshotcombo] HELLO I AM NEW AND BURSTING WITH OOGLE-MENT FROM ALL THE EYECANDY I HAVE WITNESSED SO FAR IN THIS COMMUNITY. Alriiiiight...... an introduction should be made now, especially since most of you might have already jumped unto the conclusion that i'm partially psychotic from my first paragraph. My name's Sophia, I hail from Singapore and yes, we speak english. As well as Chinese. Which is a language I happen to be really horrible at. 20 this year. Full time producer / scriptwriter. What else, what else? Oh, I love print-ads, commercials and the like. And I'm not psychotic. ( I also have a face! ) 2 comments|post comment

Cute vs. Hot? [08 Jul 2008|11:34am] lesbian [manisia33] Hm, so my best friend/ex girlfriend were talking yesterday, and she was talking about all the girls she could hook up with, as usual. She's pretty hot, not gonna lie. And she has this sexy type demeanor, you know? So her telling me this is sometimes a little sad for me, because although I don't know that many girls who are into girls, I don't think I'd have as many making eyes at me if I did. And when I ask my friend why, she tells me it's because I look young. Grrr... ( Cut for length?  ) 13 comments|post comment

Somewhere along the tennessee border. [08 Jul 2008|11:00am] lesbiansingles [xotokadotxo] [ mood | accomplished ] What is your current relationship status? Obviously single. LOL - What's your name? Heidi, but you can call me Cookie. - Where do you live? Will you date girls who don't live there? Somewhere in Tennessee, it really does depend on how far they live. - How old're you? What's your sign? Do you follow astrology? Seventeen going on Eighteen. Capricorn. I do, I love astrology =D I find myself always going over to the astrology section when I'm at the bookstore. - How tall're you? eeekkk. I'm about 4'9 - How would you define your sexuality? Well don't tell anyone....LOL but I really really like girls =D - Do you label yourself, or don't you? (androgynous/butch/femme/soft butch/mtf/ftm/undefined) Well I guess I'm femme? lol - Do you have a preference, or don't you? (androgynous/butch/femme/soft butch/mtf/ftm/unimportant) Whatever catches my eye =D - Do you have a size perference, tell us what types of girls you like? Honestly, it is just how the girl carries herself, taller is a defiant but I mean, that's pretty easy to meet. But no, no certain girl catches my eye... I have just been known to fall for blue eyes, they get me in a heap of trouble. - Are you out? To mostly everyone yeah. If you don't know, then you really aren't a part of my life then. - What's something you just absolutely love in a relationship? the cudddllliinng..lol - What's a pet peeve that you just can't put up with? Oh! I normally can never think of this.. but I actually can this time! LOL I hate it when I don't get that eye contact with someone when I'm talking to them.. It doesn't have to be full blown staring...LOL it just has to be that reassuring I'm listening to you eye contact. LOL call me a dork! lol =D - Do you smoke? Do smokers bother you? No, not really, as long as your breath isn't nasty or the smell is intoxicating your clothes. - Do you drink? Do drinkers bother you? Sometimes, nah, as long as you are an addict. - Do you drug? Do druggers bother you? No. Yes, I won't date someone who is caught up in drugs. - What type(s) of music do you like? I listen to pretty much everything but country...at the moment..I'm in love with Metro Station, Lovers Ball, The Cardigans, I'll always love oldies, and gosh, I love a lot at the moment. LOL - Which authors do you read, if any? It's more like what books...haha almost anything about Cleopatra, Harry Potter books, LOTR books, I just started reading the DaVinci Code - Which television shows are a must-watch for you, if any? The office =D - If you could live anywhere in this world, where would it be and why? Every since I was little I wanted to live in Egypt, because I have an obsession with Egyptian culture. LOL So I would definitely be exploring alot. - What do you like on your pizza? oh girl, right now I could go for some pineapple and canadian bacon =D YUM YUM. - Describe your perfect weekend. Well, I don't think something specific every has to happen to make it perfect. As long as I'm with people who are having a good time, most likely I'm going to be having a great time. - Tell us your favorite scent? (You know the one that makes you weak in the knees!) Well.....if I told you...I'd have to kill you, cause everyone can't have that power. lol - Anything else you'd like to add? Definitely love meeting new people, oh and if you are in the southern part of the states, definitely hit me up! =D Doesn't matter though, either way! I love talking to new people. - And then just leave us your contact information (aim, email, msn, myspace, etc.) and post a picture (if large, behind an lj-cut). This and just ask if you want to know anything else! 3 comments|post comment

help??? [08 Jul 2008|09:50am] lesbian [fadedjeans08] Ok, so I've been sort of dating someone for about 2 weeks now. We've gone on 3 dates and have spent a lot of time together with other friends in between. The more I get to know her, the more I like her. It seems to be going the same way for her too. I think anyway. Heres the problem, the more I like her, the more I'm afraid of her. Half the time I'm around her I just want to get up and run out of the room, and I'm starting to ignore her when we're with friends. I guess I'm not fully recovered from my abusive mess of a former girlfriend, but its been over a year and I have made some progress. The fact that I'm dating anyone at all is huge progress. Heres the bigger problem, I asked her to come over on Thursday thinking she probably wouldn't even be able to, but she's free and she's excited. So now I can't just find some excuse, or ignore her. She'll be at my house. I really do like her. I told her a little about my ex, but nowhere near all of it and I definitely didn't use the word abuse. But, even with the little information she had, she was really considerate about it and said she's really not a mean person and has been really careful about boundaries. She's making it really hard for me to just stop dating her because she actually seems like she could be really great. Should I tell her more so she understands why I'm basically ignoring her? Should I ask her if we can take things really really slow? Should I just end it all together? Or, should I just wait it out and see if the fear goes away? 11 comments|post comment

Help [08 Jul 2008|03:39pm] gaywriters [stormpoet] ( You are about to view content that may only be appropriate for adults. ) 1 comment|post comment

.... [08 Jul 2008|09:02am] shoe5005 [ mood | tired ] [ music | Up All Night in Hackensack Blues ] yesterday i lost ALL my car-driving priveledges for at least a year.. ..oh and i hate sucking around the bus's tailpipe all the time, the exhaust fumes make me *gag* *and no, not *gag* like you hedonists are thinking.. good night, all.. 2 comments|post comment

Eeee!!! [08 Jul 2008|02:59am] lesbian [afallenmusician] [ mood | excited ] Okay, my crush came over yesterday ever so randomly and surprised me. Her little brother and my little brother are best friends and today is my brother's birthday. He was gonna celebrate with us and she decided to pop in. Needless to say I was mind numbingly excited. ( Cut for length and gushiness.... ) 7 comments|post comment

Color Blind [08 Jul 2008|04:05am] queerpoets [mathiasthom] If only I could fall asleep at the appointed time, Instead of this slumberous means, slipping between the cracks of another endless week Where the sun bares down with sickly sweet shards, feeling the hair burn, on the surface of these arms Wait for it, but it never arrives, blue exhaust spitting, from environmentally green cars Racial wars on the television screen, endless lies from a charlatan, how can Youth be so gullible? Roll back civilization another thousand years Don't be blinded by the color of skin, beneath the surface,it's all wax,mucous,and sin sweet talking words with a beautiful flow, until they have taken away every 'right' that you have ever known... mathiasthom written 7/8/08 post comment

PSA [08 Jul 2008|02:22am] slamnation [chaoward] so i sit here with fingers in knots and tongue desert dry trying to wring words like blood from a rock i threw past the end of my vision long ago not knowing what to reach for i'll leave my crumpled hands huddled together limp in my lap and listless as if they've expired the tenure of their use to me so I sit here meticulously crafting this unnecessarily wordy excuse as to why I’ve been off lately there are reasons; i promise laundry lists of stressors and distractions unfinished plans and unanswered calls to fill the shoes I stepped out of but I’ve been really busy making sure I’m not busy at all shrugs and sighs fill the ledger of my free time instead of accomplishments and accolades but I’ll get back to it at some point I promise For now I’ll continue to pretend to placate myself Milking the last remnants of life from a legacy no one even mentions anymore Falling back to the volumes of yesteryear like familiarity should merit more applause than originality Like Casey Kasem should be introducing my every performance with some signature catchphrase: “now here’s that hit from the old days we all remember” “let’s take a trip down memory lane with this number” Or “here’s some reiterated shit you already know, except this time with less feeling!” Let me regale you with the brilliance of my still unfinished poems Unfurl tales of my venue’s heyday like some road-hard aging rockstar still trying to impress himself after years of being a hack And failing I don’t want to be at the top of my game I just want to play again Remember what it was like to be me undaunted When I would walk away from a microphone smiling instead of gritting teeth and silently kicking myself for doing that piece again When Wednesday nights would make me happy But unfortunately as much of an appeal to the public as this may seem it’s just more wordy exploration into what the hell exactly my problem is And how only I can fix it So in  the meantime, while I unscrew every bolt holding together my tenuous machination of sanity and re-examine my entire perspective on art, expression and life it-fucking-self don’t lose faith in me the same smiling drunkard we all knew and loved will be back to sway crowds with his custom-tailored brand of asinine antics it just might take a little while 1 comment|post comment

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just another coldplay fanboy [07 Jul 2008|09:45pm] coldplay [rt2788] [ mood | excited ] [ music | Middleman ] Greetings all Coldplay FANATICS! Today, I went to Borders and got two magazines with Coldplay on the cover Q Magazine and Spin, and two weeks ago I bought the Rolling Stones. I love the stories & interview with Chris Martin and the band, of course. Anyone else got the magz? Another great thing, I bougth three (girlfriend, sister and myself) tickets for Chicago United Center for July 22, is anyone else is going to that???  I am stoked :D Can't wait for it. Until then. PS. I have coldplay artwork so just give me message and i will more than happy to share it with you. VIVA LA VIDA 1 comment|post comment

Hair or not... [07 Jul 2008|07:46pm] lesbian [rydergood] [ mood | contemplative ] [ music | mother nature ] Hi all...just moved into this community a few days ago and I was just thinking about an issue that I've been struggling with for about 3 yrs. To let my hair grow...meaning on my legs as well as my pits (arm-pits).I experienced Michigan Womyns Musical Festival (3yrs, ago) and that changed my life in so many ways...it made a woman outta me (and I don't mean the girly kind either...no offense) It made me see EVERY womon is BEAUTIFUL (which includes me) no matter what you believe in, how you identify,every womon is strong & beautiful...we are all Queens...so my dilemma is this...since then I've let my hair grow...now personally I think I could put some guys too shame ( I exaggerate jus a bit) and for that reason I don't wear shorts at work.I've showed a straight girl my hair & she gasped! (lol) So this year I've decided to "trim" my hairy legs & pits so that I can in fact feel comfortable about being in shorts at work. I might add that I changed jobs and the company is loaded with lesbians (yay! by this I mean 3 (: )..still...I know I used to have a hard time getting used to my bro having hairy everything,,,I still used a razor till I went to MWMF...but now I find it cool on all womyn who do wear the hair but the only time I feel totally comfortable is around my friends & around my own kind...whatcha all think...will it become more acceptable in the "hetro" world...womyn letting their natural hair grow...cause think about it... if I never shaved my hairy legs wouldn't look so much like a guys hairy leg & my pit hairs wouldn't be so damn long and OUT there... 11 comments|post comment

What happened in ceramics class???? [07 Jul 2008|09:54pm] birls [elle_powerlifts] ( Hung like a... ) Sup Birly Birls? 12 comments|post comment

Be Your Own Hero Festival 2008: Call for Submissions! [07 Jul 2008|09:48pm] lesbian [juiceboat] xposted. Be Your Own Hero Festival 2008 Now Accepting Submissions The 2nd Annual Be Your Own Hero (BYOH) Festival will be taking place in Wilmington, North Carolina September 2008. The locations and exact dates will be announced at a later time. Submissions for workshops, info sessions, skill shares, and musicians are currently being accepted until July 31, 2008. Volunteers are also needed to help out on the day(s) of the event and/or to join the BYOH Fest Planning Squad. Please send workshop submissions to herofest@gmail.com with your name, email, phone, organization/collective (if applicable), proposed workshop title & short description, materials needed, and time needed. All other ideas, volunteer availability, and inquiries may also be sent to herofest@gmail.com. We welcome all subjects and we encourage all people to apply, especially those who do not fit neatly into the status quo! In 2007, Wilmington NC was home to the first Be Your Own Hero Festival, an all day radical Do It Yourself (DIY) Festival held at the Soapbox Laundro Lounge. The Festival included a Really Really Free Market, potluck, workshops, info sessions and live music. 2007’s workshops included: DIY parenting (a radical concept), Basic Bicycle Repair, Truth in Recruiting / Promoting Peace, Social Activism & the Info-Radical Menstruation, Food Politics, Trans 101: Becoming an ally to transgender people, Unconventional Action: Organizing against the DNC/RNC, and DIY DJ Workshop. Bands included: The Brothels, The Nothing Noise, Gator Country, Prize Winners Collective, NED, and Ghost Mice. For more information on the Be Your Own Hero Festival and Collective, visit www.beyrownhero.com or contact herofest @ gmail.com. _______________________ ( Submission Form ) 1 comment|post comment

Sexy time [08 Jul 2008|02:13am] suckitupdyke [roshulf] ..or the lack of it. My girlfriend and I have been going out for over two and a half years. During that time I lived away for about 8 months and cheated on her with a guy. She guessed something wasn't right pretty quickly..I told her and when we next saw eachother we broke up. But about a month later we were in just as much contact as if we were together and I decided to go home early and we very quickly got back together. That was over a year ago now and we have mended our relationship..something I'm very happy about. It took quite a while..obviously but she has regained her trust in me which means the world to me. Anyway, since we got back together our sex life has been awful. We're a very affectionate couple and I could kiss and cuddle until the cows come home but my sex drive just seems to have vanished. At first she was really put out by this but now it seems like we've just settled into a routine. We do have sex..just very rarely. When we do it's good but pretty predictable I guess and I just can't seem to summon up the urge to spice things up a bit..or I plan to and then never follow through. We've talked about it before but recently we haven't. Also I feel like its mostly my fault..the only reason she has settled into this routine is because I rarely initiate anything. I feel like I need to clarify that I love this girl so much. We moved in together about a month ago and aside from normal bickering its been going great..and this is something I just want to deal with properly. I find her very attractive and we used to have so much fun just staying in bed and trying out new stuff..something I really want to experience again. So please, give me some advice because I don't feel like there's anyone, other than my girlfriend, that I can talk about this. Thank you (: 7 comments|post comment

dumb rant [07 Jul 2008|08:46pm] lesbian [wreckmex] [ mood | crushed ] you could ignore this if you'd like, just mostly need to vent ( girls suck ) what happened to all the good girls in the world that dont get a kick out of playing games with someone's head/heart. anyone in the NEPA area willing to prove me wrong that decent girls still exist? cause i just lost my faith in all girls. 18 comments|post comment

genderqueer [07 Jul 2008|06:55pm] lesbian [scary_kittie] [ music | Small town gay bar ] I just finished watching a documentary called 'Gender Rebel' and it was really moving, i think. Makes me honestly know that i can date genderqueers, transgenders, and still feel like myself. One of the girls in the movie was dating a genderqueer that want to get rid of her breasts, and so the girl started feeling like she wasn't a lesbian anymore. what are your thoughts on this? have any of you dated a genderqueer or a transgendered? how did that go for you? 21 comments|post comment

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